Solving the Unsolved..

It's a weird feeling when you think that a person feels the feeling of fear or its dependency only when they aren't able to see anything into the future. This is what happened to me tonight,when I was trying to sleep and all of a sudden my mind started wandering for, I presume, dreams- but gets stuck with this thought of fear. Imagining everything from the most oblivious nooks and corners of the vastly deserted mind of ours to the grey matter, that’s helping me do what I’m doing right now. It was always obvious to me that people get scared when they see something unexpected, something unexpected that's not really pleasant, something that brings about a feeling of fear. But it's such a funny feeling when you realize that all this while the assumption was like the tip of an iceberg that'll soon wreck the Titanic. And it did, didn't expect it to be so random and naive in nature. The thought of fear arises when we fail to see anything beyond the point where we are right now, a world blurred by our own visions about our forthcomings. It's a shattering image where in rush of blood everything runs in the head like a fast forward Hollywood sci-fi, where the day starts in the hospital but ends now, right now. Having said that, I am fluttered with my own experience of fear, a fear that bolted in me for a long time, inability to differentiate between a nightmare and reality! I'll have it posted sometime soon- The Experience, but as of now, it took me a while to get going. But for the first time I had a chance to understand the meaning of fear, to see through it, to peek into the microscopic nature of the word. It definitely is an abstract feeling that haunts you for a time till you believe in it, it possesses the mind and heart till you again start seeing the 'next', the way it should be and not frozen in the moment, and time. Is this what I have been feeling all this while? fear, fear of being alone? feeling that life will move on but I'll stay in it? Is this a fear or is it a fear to fear that the fear might end one day with life itself....?